Monday, November 22, 2010

Thoughts

Thoughts as of late:

I'm growing up.  For real this time.  When you're a small girl, "growing up" meant that you could change your clothes by yourself and tie your shoes.  When you're a teenager, "growing up" meant that you could go through a hard day and not let it affect the way you treated your little brother.  As you mature into an adult, you learn how to do your own laundry, cook your own food, (hopefully) manage your own budget, and pay for your own bills.  You do your own homework when you're supposed to and you drive yourself places.  (I'm still working on that one.)  You take responsibility for your actions, and you learn how to fix your own problems.

There is a new level of being an adult that I've never really known about.  And I feel like I've had to discover it the hard way, because when other people would try to tell me, I wouldn't believe them.  I thought that they were just being jaded and pessimistic.  I'm not trying to say that life sucks, because it DOESN'T.  But you do need to know a few things to make it through unscarred, or at least with minute scars.  And I don't think that I'm jaded or pessimistic.  Just wiser.

In order to survive in a highly competitive market and not get stomped on, you have to be able to hold your own.  There are some of those (myself included) who hate hurting other people's feelings, even to the point of hurting ourselves so that others won't be inconvenienced.  That's all well and good in some circumstances, but when opportunities for your career are on the line, and there are others being unjust to you, it just won't work to be that way all the time.  It's a really tough lesson to learn, and it's never easy.  Good news is that most of the time, there is a way to keep things professional and civil without getting immature.

I won't go into any specifics.  I'm also very grateful that I'm at an institution like BYU where you don't see too much of that.  Still though, it's good to be prepared if you plan on having a job one day.  If you have a good set up, don't make the mistake of thinking that someone isn't going to want what you have.  Sadly, and unfortunately, it's just the way it is.

On a more hopeful note, may everyone looking for jobs in competitive markets be blessed by the Lord in finding something that they love as well as something that will sustain the needs of their family.  We can't give up!

Friday, November 19, 2010

My Favorite Videos

I've been looking through some of my old videos, and I came across this one.  This is why I miss my family.  Spontaneous, random interactions that have to do with some kind of performance.  Nobody even said "let's do this."  It just sort of happened over Christmas break last year.

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And the ever famous closing night of the opera.  Let me tell you.  Erica and I were SO READY to be done!


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Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Can I just say?

Can I just say how much I appreciate you avid bloggers who post interesting stories and pictures for me to read and laugh about?  I just took a look at my piddly blog and read some old entries.  I feel ashamed.  I complain way too much--can I just say that, too?  Me being a perfectionist/planner/red personality/forward looking person, I tend to want answers and want them NOW.  Well, at least I'm self aware.  But being self aware doesn't necessarily change my tendancies.  I want to know what is going to happen after graduation.  I want to know if I should minor in Computer Science or not (I really am interested--you have my leave to laugh.)  I want to know if Matt will find a job in Utah or Texas, or wherever else.  I want to know if I should get a masters.  I want to know if my hair will ever grow any faster.  Gosh, I have never felt so confused.  At least in high school I knew that I wanted to be a flute performance major and there was never any question about it.  I knew I wanted to come to BYU.  I knew that I would live in Provo.  I wasn't sure if I would get married, but luckily I found the PERFECT guy and so that all worked itself out. 

Can I also say that I am so grateful for a kind, supportive, hilarious, good looking husband who will dress up with me and make me laugh when I'm stressed out?  Seriously, I would be a wreck without him.



Halloween was SO. MUCH. FUN.